Why not settle on a choice?

Where do all the memories go when we have forgotten them? Do they just blur away? Do they ever come back? I wouldn’t know the feeling, I remember everything about you,us. Oh, if I  could make them dissapair. I want to recover from the entire heartbreak I have related to you, the fact of the matter is I am not by any means beyond any doubt I can. 

Your promises are in my mind, like a permanent tattoo, if only I could erase them. Remember when I asked you not to hurt me, as I have been hurt before? Remember how sure you were that it will be impossible for us to be apart? Do our memories hunt you in your darkest nights? Everytime I see you, you look cold. Distant. As you have been able to throw our memories away with a solitary breath. 

Don’t you have regrets, as I do?  You always seem to be consistent. Everytime we get in contact, you give me hope, you play it in front of me for whatever length of time that you need,knowing I might actually fall for it. Because you know me, you know my weaknesses for you. You know how hard is for me to resist to my own heart, my own feelings. Why play it for so long?  Why aren’t you prepared to settle on a choice? To discharge me from the nightmare I am caught on?

Embracing the idea of not having you hurts,  what hurts more, is your incompetency of choosing what you really want to do. I played my cards, told you whatever I felt, every strength, every weakness. You had access to my naked soul, so please,  have the goodness to secure it, as you had everything on your palm, and chosen to discard it.

Is she the one?

I fought for what I thought its called ” love”. And I know how wrong I was, knowing you are just an illusion that keeps coming back, hunting our memories. There is nothing I could do in regards of what we shared, and no matter how hard it is, the love I feel for you, was and will always be unconditional. Faith? No. I call it a child’s dream to happiness. Just because I always wanted you, does not mean I will ever stay in a relationship that keeps hurting me. 

Remember the old good days, when we used to share our dreams? Hoping that one day, they will become reality? Remember how you used to kiss me for hours, saying that nobody will take my place? That I am the only one that can rest her head on your shoulder, knowing you could always act as my ” guardian angel”? Well, I remember, and I could not imagine sharing my deepest nightmares with anyone else, but you. 

Is not as I never tried to stay away. Is like something keeps pulling me towards you. I feel reckless coming back to the same human being that hurt me on a regular basis, everytime I tried to get close. I feel like a child that is being told something is wrong, but keeps doing it because it feels good. I am aware I have no right to get involved in your present life. I know. You moved on, you are probably happy, more than I have ever been able to make you. Is she better? Is she the one? Is she the person that dries out the sweat of your nightmares on the middle of the night? Can she fulfill your needs as I used to? If the answer to all this is positive, I truly hope you will be happy. I hope you will remember our good moments, and cherish what you have with her. I hope you prove your love to her, unconditionally, repetitively. Maybe she deserves it, because there is one thing I am sure of; you deserve to be happy, even if not by my side. Be happy.
With simpathy,

Someone that will always love you

Until the end of time

Simply one more day, without knowing your whereabouts. As you may know, you’ve been maintained a strategic distance from my messages of late. Abruptly, you choose to appear at my entryway, with no notice. That is the means by which I understood, it’s not over yet. My heart won’t quit beating for you, since I have not seen you for as far back as four years. However, here you are, and I gradually feel the Universe  has something arranged with us.  Coincidence?Unadulterated uncontrolled love? Who knows? For whatever length of time that you are here, I am not intrigued on how it happened, I am intrigued on to what extent you will remain. 
Along these lines, take a seat, drink your coffee, and tune in. It’s been a long time since I looked in your eyes. Four years, since I attempted to let you know; for me, it’s not over. Keep in mind our fantasies? Since I do. We used to dream about our home, with a view to the shoreline. We both know how associated we are with the sea. Keep in mind how we guaranteed we will hang on? We used to state our love was “unnconditional” and it was. At any rate from my perspective. As I generally gave you everything. You had my heart giftwrapped on a plate. With no dread, lament or uncertainty.

Where did we turn out badly? Unmistakably, there more likely than not been something. Perhaps we were excessively youthful, making it impossible to trust our love will last. Perhaps, our ways should go separated, so we comprehend we have a place together. Who knows? 

Here we are, years after the fact. Eye to eye, frightful to state something that could turn out off-base. There is nothing that could turn out badly, not on the off chance that you remain. Pause for a moment and appreciate this minute. Don’t you wish it could keep going forever? Envision how upbeat we can live. We would have what to tell our grandchildren; adolescence cherish, rejoined forever. Or, on the other hand possibly we can show them how to dependably hold tight, how to take after their fantasies, and have trust. In the event that this is the thing that you wish, remain. Try not to relinquish me, as I let go of you years back. Fight, let me know we are on the same path,in the event that you do, I’ll remain with you. Until the end of time.