I could see how the night turned into a sunny day, during the hours I spent thinking about you. About us, our memories and promises. Yes you hurt me, and people around me seem to not understand. What I coule hear in the past three days, from you, from them..is just ” it will pass, calm down”. What do you all expect to pass? Time, love, you? Yes, time passes, and with every second I feel worse, worthless and weak. My powers have gone the second you managed to get over me without a clear explanation. I look at our photos and all I could see is love. Two young adults that loved each other unconditionally. Where did the love go? Where does the love go when nothing is left? Could you explain? You seem to be fine; while my stomach rejects the food I try to eat, just to be alive. Nothing matters for me right now, except you. My eyes cried for the past three days no sleep, no power,no you. And I know how much you used to say that I am a good writer, but this is not about writing, this is about laying my heart in words, for you.
Maybe I was wrong, as I know I made mistakes, but you always promised to stay. Is this the end of our relationship? Or the end of me? I just cannot understand your decision. And every second, every heart beat is passing stronger. I just want you. Your ego, lips, love, anything. But I want you…because time does not heal, is making it worse. And I simply cannot deal with it..
It’s been a long time since we known each other. I can still remember the moment I first met you. Green eyes, light hair and a charming smile. That was the moment I realized you are the one for me, and yet, you are gone.
Seven years later, I see you just as another stranger that came to cross my path. Except the fact that you are one of the strangers that knows my weaknesses. You know everything that can possibly hurt me, so you know how to take advantage of it.
I never believed those stories when he comes to her and simply says “goodbye”;it was just another movie scene I used to see in many films. And yet, here you are, cold as a stone, unmoved by my tears and red eyes. What could I have done that horrible to get this? Three days later, we are two strangers. I cannot deal with everyday’s basics as everywhere I turn, I get a flashback of us, together. Why did you became so careless towards me? And why won’t you give me a valid explanation?
You cannot come into my life, damage everything in it and leave as you wish. We had dreams together, do you remember? We used to think of getting married, having our own kids, in our two-bedroom house in London. We used to joke about what kind of dad you would be and how you will always be over-protective with our kids.
Remember the promises we made? You gave up too easy, and left me asking all this questions. You chose to ignore me and left me suffering. My body hurts, my heart is broken into pieces, and you still don’t care.
I love you, and today, I promise I will love you forever, no matter what. Because you will remain, my only one love.